Never did talk about it

I'm so busy studying and obessing about unimportant things lately that I always forget to comment on what's actually been going on on a day to day basis.

Before I went to Xchanges for the stage I was thinking about documenting it in some way, like by updating to blog daily or something along those lines, but then when i started there just wasn't the motivation to do it. Th robot project was good and went smoothly but there wasn't too much else to say. I couldn't very well start writing about the people who work there. It'd be unprofessional... and anyhow, you never know how these things go. When animation mnetor's done in March I'll ahve a think about going back there and asking if they'll still have me.

India is another thing I never really talked about. I was thinking about when our car got a flat tire and the people we met there. Begging for cookies and shampoo- I remember the girl with the twisted eyes and skin problems. I remember the fish with no eyes. I should write all that stuff down before I forget. but I probably won't. the same way i spent more than 4 hours a day in the car with ramesh Raman as our driver and promised I'd mail him when we got home. The same way I always say I should keep a journal.

After a long time not using any web messenging software I'm back on MSN alot these days. It helps to numb the fact that I rarely leave my house. I feel more connected this way. I guess I'm the type of person they study in psychiatric wards to see what the affects of technology on society are. Case studies and the like.

I have a look now and then at other people's blogs, especially artisits and I see how comitted they are to their works. I see how the blog is often updated with new sketches and inspirations and the links to other blogs are of other artists with inspirations and sketches... And it gets me down a bit. Like when I listen to the Beatles and I think of how much I'm not going to do in my life. But then I remember I'm me, and I feel a little better.

So this post is about all the things I'm not going tobe and the things I'm not going to talk about.